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  • Nov. 10th, 2009 at 11:51 PM


Sometimes I panic. Sometimes I forget to breathe. Sometimes my heart beats so fast and sometimes it rests, almost as if it will stop anytime. Sometimes I think too much and sometimes I just stare at you. Sometimes I go crazy and sometimes I feel like I am too boring to hang out with. But being with you, I get my priorities straight. You make me feel like I can fly and do anything much more than I think I can or already did. You make me relax and stop worrying. Sometimes I get so stupid and unreasonable. But you always prove me wrong at the end of the day. You are unpredictable and that makes everything exciting. You always surprise me with those little things.

I am sure we will make it. I just can’t wait for tomorrow.

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Back from the grave

  • Oct. 4th, 2009 at 2:40 PM

I got my house hooked on wifi and this nice little thing called iphone making my blog work easy....

Anyway, all i want to say is that i am pretty pissed. People just dont know when to stop. I used to have a huge respect for..... But now i cant stand and i am just so efffing glad i know what i am gping to do.....

Just another used to be....

Xoxo
Bobongatenista

Ps...
I am happier than ever before... Thry can try to ruin but errrr.... Thats all they could fo, try....

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State of Mind

  • Sep. 1st, 2009 at 3:22 AM
I am drunk. And I thought I could write something here in my livejournal. This is the most honest state that I could get, especially sharing to the world. Life isn't perfect, there are always ups and downs. But whatever it is, I could care less. You know why, because I accepted the fact that I am not perfect also, so why even bother making life so absolutely perfect, right?

There were things in my life that I make a stand for it, some people might not get me but it is myself that I have to convince first.  Everything wasn't easy for me, contrary to what people believed. But there was a time that you really have to choose, it sounds like make it or break it for me. I went to a difficult route, but it is always the liberating way when you take that road. But I am here now, none of it really matters.

Friends come and go, and there are few people that I openly share my entire life. I need to be free, I need to be understood and I need to breathe out my thoughts, triumphs, failures, sadness and happiness. Luckily I got friends who tirelessly listening to me and understanding me. They are those friends that come up to me and say it to my face. Honestly. Brutally.

There were people that were no longer a part of my life, they might or not speak to me again but I could only wish them love, happiness and peace. I am not bitter and I have no reason to be one. I am happy at this point, right at this moment, because I learned something about myself and I didn't know I have it in me, the patience and forgiving.

I am happy right now. I have plans. I have guts. Each day it makes me want it more, risk it all and live a life beyond my comfort zone. Life isn't really comfort, happiness, sadness, money, profession and the list goes on, its about the adventure, the roads, the climbs, the free falling and the fearlessness. I am making it right now, I am there.

To all the people who stays, thank you so much. To my old friends that has been always there for me, thank you. And to you, for giving me so much joy and for making me realize that we can actually make a brilliant and wonderful adventure together, thank you. For the inspirations, thoughts, jokes and none sense conversations, thank you for giving that pleasure. I am looking forward... really.

This is where I say goodbye and head back to bed.... Thanks for the time. Peace!

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Wednesday

  • Aug. 5th, 2009 at 10:04 AM

I was staring at blank page before I went to Karen’s Café this morning. I wanted inspiration. I felt like I have to smash my brain out to a thick concrete wall if you know what I am saying. I just wanted my brain to bleed and let my left cortex shut the fuck up and be awake. So I went there and got an extra-hot-no-foam-non-fat Shakespearean latte. But E.E. Cummings whole wheat choco cookies gave me the sugar rush and the inspiration to write.

"E.E. Cummings once wrote; 'To be nobody-but-yourself - in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else - means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.'"

I remember the time when our family almost lost everything. Our business wasn’t doing well. My parents sold our car just to get through the days. I, on the other hand, was still in college on my last year as an engineering student. I lived six blocks away from the university, for 3 months, I walked everyday. Sometimes when I was so tired from school, I took jeepney rides and sat at the driver ‘s sit at the back so that I have to pass all the fares, in that way the driver can’t tell if I already paid him or not. For the first time in my life, I got to wake up each morning terrified and clueless if I could make it to the next day.

Those times will forever be a part of my life.

I have things in the past that I am not proud of. There were people who tried to tear me. There are times I kneeled and on the edge of giving up. There are times that I am tired of fighting and giving up is the best solution that I can come up with. There were people that I hurt. And I will be forever praying for them.

What I am trying to say here is that my life has been ass kicking great. Amidst everything that happened, I remained calm. I kept it through myself. I settled them on my own. I get undeniably stronger. So whatever life brings, I am ready, I keep fighting. And I won’t stop.

George's Trajedies

  • Aug. 2nd, 2009 at 9:14 PM

"There are two tragedies in life: one is to lose your heart's desire, the other is to gain it."  -- George Bernard Shaw

No action. Plain and wet. That’s how my Sunday was. I just got my laptop back from the dead- thank God it didn’t crashed for good. I was installing some of my orginal applications so I stayed online for like whole day. While doing so, I went browsing and got myself some readings. I came across to George’s quote and it is bugging me the whole day. I am trying to answer  and to understand what does it mean. It seems so contradicting- errr!!! Not seems, but really contradicting- but makes sense.

I completely agree with him. I set my life goals and normally, life goals must be everyhing you ever wanted and everything you hoped for and it will give you happinness. In the process, it is given that you are faced with certain situations and circumstances that may alter or hasten towards that goal, some may tear you apart, some may give you additional drive or some may be undeniably painful that makes you surrender. But its our choices that make everything where we at right now and some choices left us with no choice.

That what makes life is all about. There is no blueprint or pattern for a happy life, there is no crash course for it either and clearly self-help books come inevitably unhelpful-sometimes. But still there is no prototype. If I may ask you, would you live your life playing on the safe side, or will you embrace the fact that life is dynamic, unstable and unpredictable? Are you ready to get that goals knowing that in the process you may or may not lose yourself, hurt someone, some lost their souls and some end up in cobble stones where they could only do nothing but regret? Or just play it one day at a time.

I think that’s how I understand George. I think it’s a fact of life that you cannot have the best of both worlds. It is always bittersweet but its how you make out of it that matters, how you handle it and how you will sustain and move on to the next.

Yeah, losing your heart’s desire is tragic. But gaining your heart’s desire... It’s all you can hope for. This year, I wished for love. To immerse myself in someone else and to wake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted. And if having that is tragic… then give me tragedy. Because, I wouldn’t give it back for the world.

Just Because

  • Jul. 28th, 2009 at 12:28 AM

Do you ever wonder if we make the moments in our lives or if the moments in our lives make us?

If you could go back and change one thing about your life, would you? And if you did, would that change make your life better? Or would that change ultimately break your heart? Or break the heart of another? Or would you choose an entirely different path? Or would you change just one thing, just one moment? One moment that you've always wanted back.

I see life as a motion picture. You don’t get a chance to pause and rethink, worst; you can’t undo things or events, not even one second that just passed. Time is running, so are situations, events and circumstances.

Stephen King once wrote: 'Time takes it all, whether you want it to or not. Time takes it all, time bears it away.. and in the end.. there is only darkness. Sometimes we find others in that darkness, and sometime we lose them there again.

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days.

 

I may have chosen the same path before and failed me, but it doesn’t mean I have to be scared and allow myself to see it pass by me, when, at this very moment, it is everything I ever wanted and everything I hoped for and I am truly happy. Would you allow something like this pass your life even if it failed you before? I know I can’t. I am a risk taker, free, rebel and bold.

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours.".....Ayn Rand, ATLAST SHRUGGED

Sometimes I wonder if anything is absolute anymore. Is there still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable, left to interpretation, gray? Sometimes were forced to bend the truth? to transform it because we are faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes, things simply catch up with us.

My name is Ronan; I live in KidapawanCity. Kidapawan is just a place somewhere in the world. Maybe it's a lot like your world. Maybe it's nothing like it. But, if you look closely you might see someone like you. Someone trying to find their way; someone trying to find their place; someone trying to find their self. Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re the only one in the world who's struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied at barely getting by. But, that feeling is a lie and if you just hold on; just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find the way and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes, someone to help us hear the music in the world. To remind us that it won’t always be this way. That someone is out there, and that someone will find you.


Inspired by One Tree Hill


Fleeting Images

  • Jul. 27th, 2009 at 11:10 PM
I am back.

I have so much to blog about but I am way too behind. What better way to stay updated than making a video of my backlogs. So enjoy.....




Isang Linggong Lasing

  • Jul. 10th, 2009 at 11:35 AM
Friday



Saturday







Monday



Wednesday





And watch out for the cookfest @ Cha's crib sabado ng gabi...... Wednesday Group will take you farther...LMAO!!!!!

Flight of the Blackbird

  • Jul. 10th, 2009 at 11:15 AM

I just came back. I think I am still stuck up in that vacation mood thingy. But I gotta do what I have to do, which of course work, thank you very much...LOL.

I think what happen in Manila stays in Manila. So i dont have to blog or anything about it. I just want to say, that trip is the best Manila trip I had. Trust me.... <chuckles>



That's it for now. I am back....eeerrr working again..... BTW, the wednesday group will be packing their shits and fly soon..... I can't wait to travel with a very huge group.... LMAO!!!!!.... Peace y'all...

Wednesday Group

  • Jun. 25th, 2009 at 3:41 PM

Wednesday. Gumala ang wednesday group. Kokonti lang kami kagabi. Maraming absent sa grupo, nasa Agusan ang founder, ang wasted nasa Mati at ang dalawa ay nakipagsapalaran sa Davao. Pero walang makakapigil sa amin basta magkasama lang. Dumating yung kaibigan ko galing sa Davao, matagal na rin niya gustong bumisita dito at natuloy nga at tamang-tama, may gimik ang wednesday group. Member na sya, may nangyaring exchanging numbers at kung anu-ano pang kaplastikan ni Choy... Bwahahahaha...

Heto yung kaibigan namin ni Doc.







Natapos ang bonding namin Midnight ngunit may isang wasted na gustong kumain ng sang katutak na Balot.... Hulaan kung sino???





Basta hindi ako yun...... Next wednesday uli pagbalik ko.......

Unexpected Reunion

  • Jun. 25th, 2009 at 8:38 AM

Happy Birthday Nea...


Nea look at the camera, don't ever ask what am I holding, trust me, you don't wanna know???.....LOL



This is the unexpected reunion..... Tejada suck-up pips......



Seriously, my hair looks awful. Choy and I decided to get fixed. Hair Studio, Roy is f^cking amazing.



We went to Torres and MTS.





And Aling Foppings cravings.



Black Bird

  • Jun. 22nd, 2009 at 4:51 PM





It has been awhile since I paused and tried to look around my room and meander. I had the pleasure doing that this morning. As soon as I got up, I walked towards my CD rack. I found Inuman Session album. I used to play it in my car. Listening to the whole album takes me back to Manila days - my times with my cousins, my fabulous room in QC, water hall, great neighborhood, unbelievably huge humps, jeep, PhilCOA and tuknene.

 

Time flies so fast. I didn’t realize that I have been here for awhile now. A lot of things happened in my life since then. Sometimes I wonder how in the hell did I bounced back from all the shits happened. There was a point when I thought my life changed forever. It makes me wonder sometimes how. Sometimes it feels like I don’t know myself anymore. I am growing, becoming someone stronger, meaner and an impenitent.

 

I am packing my shits for awhile. Fly across the country to let myself loose for a bit. Hoping life can be happier when I come back. Though I will be working still but I can manage to squeeze a little krispy kreme pigging out session. LOL. See you in a bit guys…

Wednesday

  • Jun. 19th, 2009 at 1:59 PM
Sabi ko sa iyo e, para kaming 3 in 1 plus 1 virus, este A(n1h1) virus...whatever. Nadragdagan na naman kami. Meet Cha, kaibigan way back nung Elementary pa ako. Heto kami kasama ang founder ng Wednesday group.





At heto ang complete cast ng wednesday group. Hindi naman kami puro inuman. May mga bagay din kaming ginagawa maliban sa inuman. Masayang support group, kakwentuhan at kahalakhakan. Nakaka alis ng problema at higit sa lahat nakaka relax silang kasama.













Cheers to the wednesday group....LMAO

Independence Day Weekends

  • Jun. 12th, 2009 at 11:12 PM
People in the third world country are celebrating the day the country got their independence. Its more than putting Philippine Flag in cars, homes and being patriotic, its the pride of being a FILIPINO.

Bandang alas singko ng hapon, my cousin Babes called me to have some beers kasama ang kanyang kasamahan sa trabaho. Matagal na kaming hindi nagsama kaya pumunta ako sa RAB.






Akoy nalasing bandang 9:00pm.... Hindi ko alam kung gaano at papaano. Uminum din ako ng Hard. Pinainum ako ni Cora at ang kasamahan niyang magaganda....



Hinintay ko sina Arthur and Choy na matapos ang kanilang game. Sumunod kami sa 2nd venue, Iris garden... Masakit na ulo ko... Lasing na ako... At heto ang nangyari....











Happy Independence to the third world....

Under Repair

  • Jun. 7th, 2009 at 12:34 AM
I have been running around lately, meeting deadlines, working my asian ass off and keeping up with my sleeping time. I have been blessed with so much lately that it would probably change my life forever-hope its for the better.

I am sitting here in front of my friend's PC, typing in this blog. My friends are playing cards at the moment. Sometimes I wonder, what would it be like dealing with so much in life and not having them as my shock-absorbers?.....  I am just so blessed having them, having my family and having so many experiences in my effing 26 years here on Earth.....

I am packing my shits soon and break away after a very long time working. I have to see my family up North soon. I miss their sense of impossibility and the super urban life. Just to have a taste of it again probably makes me wander  with my hopeful self again.

I am crossing my fingers for a new gig. I hope I can make it.

Wish me luck amigos...

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Gold Members Only

  • Jun. 5th, 2009 at 1:55 PM

"Pagkat kami ay tinatawag na Package Deal. Dumarami. Nadaragdagan. Parang Influenza Virus. Kumakalat kami kahit saan."
 

June 3-4, 2009

After dinner at Saniel, should I say Commemorating the 40th day of Emmanuel's death - celebration seems so odd to use considering, we headed out to celebrate a birthday of an old classmate back in high school. He became a Gold Member. Wednesday is his schedule...hahahaha..


(From left to right: Choy, Ann, Cassie, Amor, Aries, 3s, BA, Ian.... Below: Arthur.... Photo by: Dms)











Amidst everything that happened, there is still that other side of the coin. I got my family and friends. So whatever things thrown at me, I could easily brush them off my sleeve like a stellar rockstar do the popping collar thingy.

Things had been said about us, funny because it managed to crawl back to us through old friends who find it so funny as well. We always laugh it out and make funny faces out from it. We are in the stage that we don't care anymore. Life is so much better if we don't linger much and learn to head on to wherever places we wish to go.

Life is simple.....

Rainy Season Party Series

  • May. 28th, 2009 at 9:47 AM
Mic-mic's Birthday Bash








@ Ting-ting's Send-off Party











Have you seen the new D&G Cologne Ad for GQ Magazine? It was Gossip Girl inspired Ad...



HAHAHAHAHAHA

Sa Uulitin

  • May. 22nd, 2009 at 1:24 PM
Sabi ng kapitbahay namin noon, pag ang tao naging kaibigan mong tapat, kahit ilang taon kayo hindi nagkikita, nagkakausap at nagkakasama, ito pa rin ay mananatiling kaibigan mo. Sumang ayon naman ako sa kanya kahit 4 years old pa lang ako noon at wala akong pakiaalam sa mga kaibigan o anu man basta may sarsi okay na ako noon. Ngayon ay sasang ayon pa rin ako sa kanya at naiintindihan ko ang sinabi niya sa akin noon.

Si Jing2x, naging magkakalase kami noon, nagkakasama pag walang pasok, kasama ko sya sa modern dance group - uuuuhuuuhhh, marunong din ako sumayaw-noon... Kahit hindi kami nagkasama matapos ang high school at hangang nag Bahamas sya, naging ganun pa rin kami kung saan kami nagkawalay noon. Ang tawanan, ang kwentuhan, mga sekreto nandun pa rin at mga bagay na dinaanan namin na magkasama at kasama ang buong tropang Q at bukaber... ako ay palaboy sa barkadahan kasi noon... hahahahaha... In short, malawak ang aking saklaw.



Nasa kanilang bahay kami noong tuesday night.... Despidida.... Babalik na ulit sya sa Bahamas... Hindi man kompleto ang noon, may bagong napasama sa amin na kaibigan ko na naging kaibigan na rin niya...... Masaya ang ganitong pagkakaibigan....









Naisip ko bigla nung lamay ni Ton2x, sa dami kasing dating kaibigang dumating, napakasarap isipin na hindi sila nawalay sa akin... Nandun pa rin yung sigla at excitement. Wala silang pakialam sa kung ano ako o kami ngayon, mas naalala namin ang dating mga sarili namin-jologs at pariwara sa Notre Dame. Naisip ko rin, napakaswerte ko kasi madami akong kaibigan-tunay at hindi fake...



Salamat sa inyo kasi nandun kayo sa mga panahon na bumabagyo at tag init... hahahahahaha... all seasons ba...

Another Used To Be

  • May. 19th, 2009 at 2:53 PM

It's raining again..... No clients or costumers going in today plus i am kinda sick and whatever.

I surf around Youtube and I came across with this song.

I remember the review days and I have this in my iPod... Cheesy but makes sense....




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Tatlong Taon

  • May. 18th, 2009 at 3:37 PM

JC Complex. May 15, 2009. Dr. Anthony's 3rd year Anniversary at Kidapawan Medical Specialist.



Ang mga matatalik niyang kaibigan from Gensan....



Ang mga close niya sa Hospital.



Mga eksena sa party.







Lumipat kami sa 12 to 12 around 1:00 AM







Umuwing lasing ang lahat around 3:30 AM..... Completo ang party at masaya.

Ika-4 na taon ulit Doc????..... Salamat

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